Monday, June 23, 2008

Trees

As you have probably noticed I am not the computer goo-ro I once was. Life has helped me to slide behind. Anyways, tomorrow $8,000 dollars is due in my account in order to leave in July. It doesn't look like that will happen. I have worked really hard but sometimes no matter what I do it just doesn't cut it. I guess we all feel that way. It's like climbing a tree. You climb and climb at a rapid pace and it seems you have a capricious amount of time before you get near the top. Then, the stem is too small you are faced with the task of either climbing down or risking a broken limb. You look down and see the task ahead is harder than the task behind you or you leap to another tree if your a squirrel. But we are not all squirrels so you begin to climb that tree again or another b/c the onlooking view is well worth the climb. That is how life is-some trees you climb you can see clearly, some trees are too tall or too small for the load you carry.. That is just the way it works. What I mean is that life is not often the way we want it but the way He wants it. If there is anything I have been learning from Him it is to always expect the unexpected, ask and you will recieve not just money but often people and glimpses of lives far more precious than any currency could buy, sometimes I'm overwhelmed with all the details that life contains-I'm learning to try and see the big picture instead of what my feeble brain can contain, so I will probably have six more months here to enjoy in my Father's marvels and lots of things to figure out b4 January, abut I know that this is his way of saying this tree is but a seedling and it has to grow a little more before I can climb it. I hope you understand or grasp a little bit of my speech if not I would be more than happy to attempt (keyword-attempt) to explain myself yet again...